It's Time, Alyssa.

It's time to turn the page.
Quit re-reading old stories.
Don't go back to old habits.
Press forward.
Write a NEW page.
Begin a new chapter!
Do you realize what this is?
It's a fresh start!
How many times have you wished for one?
Don't miss this chance.
Don't trip yourself up with so many questions.
Never think "What if..."
Understand that you are NOT the
sum total of what you think and feel.
Start grasping what's important- what really matters.
It's okay to be afraid; it's okay to not know what to do next.
It's a good thing to let God guide you.
It's finally time.
You're finally willing to give up your strength.
Today is a new day,
and you're letting yourself spend it with Jesus.
:)

Hmm,

I feel better today; I woke up this morning feeling exhausted, but okay. I'm not sure if I'm just growing numb, or if my heart is being healed. Either way, today is better than yesterday.

I really kinda miss Matthis. It's hard to believe how fast you can begin to get to know someone. He was only in America for 2 weeks, and now he's back in Germany. It's crazy to think that we'll probably never see each other again. Oh well though, I have my memories. He really is a great guy. :)

:/

It does hurt a bit when your best friend becomes very distant.

:)

My mom woke me up this morning and surprised me with rainboots!!! :) I've been looking for them everywhere, unable to find any. However, she found them and bought them for me! And she blessed me by giving me some money :)

Tonight is going to be awesome! It's Dinner Concert, and I'm doing our 18 minute medley with Knightsound.. with lots of dancing, and I'm singing with Concert Choir as well. Aaalllllsssoo, I'm singing On My Own by Les Mis with Danny Justus playing the guitar! Yay!!!

<3

Ahhhh, I'm so glad I'm where I'm at in life right now, and so grateful for all the people God has so strategically placed in my paths!! God is so creative! I love how perfectly He works friendships and relationships together :)

Dear Alyssa, Let's Do This.

"Turn from evil and do good;
seek peace and pursue it." -Psalm 34:14

I'm positive that if I practice this, I will immediately notice the benefits of it. How great would life be if every morning instead of complaining how early it was.. instead I praised God and thanked Him for the wonderful day He blessed me with?. How beautiful would my life be if I spent time alone with just me and God every morning and night?.

These are my goals for the week:
-Every morning: read my Bible, pray about my day, and praise Him before even getting out of bed. -Throughout every day: keep God number 1 in my mind, while focusing on letting Him be the center of every part of my life. -Every night: write or talk to God about my day, tell Him how beautiful, how wonderful, how perfect He is, and thank Him.

Curiosity.

I was asked a question today that made me think a little bit more than other questions would.
"What does a relationship mean to you?" he asked.
This question could be percieved as pushy or rude, but coming from him.. I'm positive the question was asked out of pure curiosity.

My thoughts started swirling unexpectedly, and before I knew it I had proceeded to tell him all my thoughts, hopes, wishes, and dreams when it came to the one, special guy I'll end up with someday.

I'm not even sure if I know him yet, but I love to think about what it'll be like someday. I love praying about him, knowing that God is going to place our lives in the perfect paths for us.. so that they will join into one someday.

Ahhhhhh, I love this stage in my life: waiting. I know that it's so vital to the outcome, for waiting only increased the joy of the expectancy! I love that God makes us strong while we wait, too. It's wonderful how He can be involved in every part of our lives! Even the parts where nothing really is going on.

:)

Dear God,

Good morning! Thank you so much for such a beautiful day. The frozen grass outside today is a hint that winter is on its way. It will always amaze me how you've placed this world so delicately in the center of your hand, and that you know exactly how to shift the seasons. You truly are beautiful, Father.

I've always known how desperately I need you, but it's been on my mind so strongly these days how true that statement really is. Lord, I'm recommitting my life to You this morning. I'm giving you my entire life, each and every part of it. No longer will I be excluding You from small fractions of myself. I am NOT going to let myself put anything before You. I want You to be the Lord of my life, not just a friend I turn to for advice every so often. I don't want to disappoint You, God. I want to get to Heaven and stand in awe of You as you smile at me and say "Well done, good and faithful servant." Thank You for loving me unconditionally, and thank You for letting me get to know You and who You really are more and more each day.

I love you.

Your Child,
Alyssa.

"I can finally see that You're right there beside me. I am not my own, for I have been made new. Please don't let me go, I desperately need You."