:(

I'm trying to hold on..
but it is like clinging to a bar of soap?
Is holding so tightly you making you slip away?

God,

Why would I drive a wedge between us?
How could I do this to myself?.. to You?
It's time to start over.
It's time to decide to let You guide me.
It's time to get over the past, and even the present.
I'm going to look ahead, and look to You, God.
I'm so sorry.
I love you.

Today

I hopefully get to see Robby. :D
He's been away for 8 months...
with juvie then rehab.
He really is a good person though,
he was one of my very best friends.
So I'm really excited to see him!
He said he's grown 8 inches!
I'm not sure if I believe him.. haha.
But anyways, my mom's birthday is TOMORROW! :)
I really want to get her a huge teddy bear,
but the biggest one I've been able to find is only 18 inches.
Hmmmm, I guess I'm gonna go look some more!

AMAZING

Distance Is Never On Our Side..

..It only seems to make our dreams collide.

:D

Matthis wrote a song, but left out the lyrics so I could write them :)

Consider It All Joy!

James 1:2-4

Consider it all joy when you encounter various trials,

knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete-
lacking nothing.

There's no doubt about it;
we WILL go through trials in our lives.
However, how cool is this!
We are able to benefit from the hard times in our lives!
I just keep reading this,
and re-reading it..
knowing that I AM ABLE to grow through these difficult times.
It makes me excited,
and even more sure that everything will be okay. :)

Ugh.

I can't even get it into words,
but basically..
Today is not my favorite.

I hate feeling like this.

Too much has changed.

Welllll,

I'm great at decisions...
until my emotions come into play.

Mary.

You trusted me today.
You told me of your past.
You opened up your heart,
and let your feelings out at last.
The tears fell from your eyes.
You said "A devil lives in me.
No medication in this world
is as strong as I need it to be."

Your life is about to change.
God's letting Himself in.
You don't know it yet,
but you're being healed within.

My prayers for you have begun,
and I'm witnessing their effect.
You're heart is open and willing,
and it soon will be in tact.

Deep Breath,

let it out.

You have nothing to fear,
God is holding your hand.

Don't look at the circumstances surrounding you,
let God lead your way.

He's right in front of you,
let Him capture your gaze.

Deep breath,
let it out.

You'll make it through this time.

Ohh... Okay.

So this is what it's like to feel alone.

Muster Up A Little Strength.

Just think about it.
-One strong decision
-One time NOT backing down
-One day ignoring desires
-One situation and choosing to ignore the feelings attatched to it
-One night spending time with God
-One day putting Him first
-One moment listening to His promptings
-One page of the Bible instead of screens filled with gossip
-One choice to follow Him instead of your thoughts and feelings

It's possible! We just have to take it just one moment at a time. :)